im not in a good mood.
so i sitdown on the floor, watching cars passed outside.
while the others having a dinner.
i got so many problems, i missed a girl who hate me now, i face a wrong guy.
im weak and tired of this situation.
im not strong enough to handle it by myself.
ess was right, i never appreciate his love.
i still don't know why i can't accept you, B.

ess sit right beside me
asking why i didn't joined them, i said im not hungry.
i put my head down on his shoulder and he hugged me.
i felt like i want to cry infront of him,
i am hurt much.
he said, "menangis tah, nada urang melarang"
he knew that im about to cry
so i cry and it feels good to let it go out than keep it in a heart.
i cry silently and hopelessly.
what happen to this faking life?
i asked him with my sadvoice and he told me dont say anything.

fadd: *poke ess* mengapa si baay?
ess: problems.

fadd sit infront of me and told me something that i don't like
so i cut his line and went to the upstairs,
lie down myself on my bed and crying
i know i was a jerk all time
ess knocked my door and came in
i sit and washed away my tears
me: so johnny bukan yang ku sangka, B?
he shake one's head.
i hugged him.
im sorry B for had been unloyal this time.
only you B, i love :')