this is why i want to suicide heh =D
aku pakai warna hijau pasal we both love this colour. oh yes, our first met, arah my cuzzy's crib. time atu raya :) ia beraya with my superb ex that time. time atu, aku banarbanar inda kenal ia, and i knew him time kawannya gtahu. so time atu, aku putus with kay, nada masa kan melayan. and kami bersalaman saja time ia pulang.
the nextmorning, ia bagi aku wall, i was about kan bagi ia wall, tapi ia dulu :) thats when my i've got a feeling towards him. we kept on wall-ing and text-ing till the secondtime kami berjumpa, di gadong. mall for sure. he with his friends and im glad to knew that chinese guy :) after the second met, kami start mc-ing, msg-ing, text-ing and wall-ing. and kami inda sabar for the next date heh. movie-ing with him (:
the nextdate, met him arah entrance and jalanjalan. it was fun though. especially the movie part =D he touched my neck, still my favouuuuurite (: i had a best day that day, go out with him. talked sama ia di Chill.
malam after pulang, we're different. he started to changed and i started to felt worried about losing him :') and so day after day, we're lost contact. since he was away, im sleepless because im crying. im starving cause doesn't had an appetie to eat. i got an eyesbag! :/ im gettin' crazier so i took a decision to be friends with lambak-ians back. i kept staying at lambak, with them, cigarrates with them, alcohol not yet young mahn. (': i talk rude sudah that time. & i know, my life was a disaster sudah. i still thankful cause the girlfriends of mine, ian enn and may still mine. they were always made me laugh whenever i told them a sad story :'D thankyou for that *hugs.
more days passed, he texted me and im very happy =D and he told me that he don't like my new life, he asked me to changed. i promised to him and i changed to my old life. but, its just a few weeks, until,
i saw him and his so called new gf at mall gadong, sang together heh? ='D that time, aku ess fadd ajeez azri kambing, mall sekejap kan makan di Swensens. aku pokerface teruus and balik rumah, i cried again and again. i locked myself in a bedroom, without a food. and I superbly hungry. what can I do to made myself happy? suicide, great idea. but no good. changed to a new life, okay i accepted :) kawanrapat ku bagi aku messaged tadi yang him macam suka kawannya. so I told her, awu. and she told me lagi, yang bibini atu selalu tukar bf. i said lagi, biartia. pandaipandai tah durang handle tu nanti =')
the end :D hows it? siuuuk ceritanya?
